…and honestly i am disappointed in myself.  not because 12 pounds isn’t great, actually 12 pounds is unreal, but because i know i could have done better.  so i sit here munching on carrots thinking about all the things i did “wrong.”

weight:     152  

body fat %:     24.2%

% of weight lost in 1 week:     7.3%

my commitment to my training has been disappointing however.  i really hoped to get some good work in before Augusta 70.3, and relative to what i felt like i should have been doing, i left a lot on the couch.  the weather has been shit for the last week, however, as i sit here and bitch about the weather and my commitment to training, it is a perfect sunny day outside.  and victoria has yet to go for a ride since lousiville (although i have been out on the road bike).

the other part i found disturbing were my eating habits.  as we speak, j-dogg, my trainer, is probably marking all through my diet book commenting on my lack of breakfast, my use of (GASP) syrup, m&m’s in the pm, the list goes on…  i tried this week too.  i know what i would normally do and i know i held myself accountable for my eating because he would be reading my log, and it was still BAD.  i have bad habits, and that’s all this is really about is breaking those old bad habits, and learning a new, better way to eat and live.  it’s hard though.  we become comfortable in our routine because it fits and works in our lives, but for me at this point, i know there is a better way.  i know i am capable of more and that i need to challenge myself to step outside of my little comfort zones in these next 8 weeks and create new habits that may leave me not only feeling better but performing better.  with that…i need to get outside!